I Will Feel

I bite the inside of my cheeks.

I find a sore or a bruise and I press on it.

I dig my nails into the palm of my hands.

I push myself beyond all limits.

I work till I’m completely exhausted.

I do what it takes to feel something/anything.

If all else fails, and i get numb to all the small things.

I can always count on my blade.

My blade is sharp and to the point

I can trust that my blade will always be there when I need it.

I need it more and more each day.

My blade is my weakness.

I know that when the cold metal touches my leg, I will feel anticipation

I know that when that sharp edge tears my flesh open, I will feel a rush.

I know that when I see the blood start to form droplets, I will feel excitement.

Most importantly I will feel!!!

Author: A. Jessep

1 thought on “I Will Feel

  1. To be perfectly honest, this upset me. Not in a hurt-my-feelings kind of way. This shouted in a language that speaks to the soul. Anyone that has ever dealt with depression will find an odd comfort in this, while also feeling drawn to help.

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